Friday, September 2, 2011

Isolation


Life can provide isolating experiences at time, such as when you move to a new place. There are so many possibilities but you’re not quite there yet. Well, I am totally talking about myself.
Fisgard Lighthouse (HDR)
I am feeling quite isolated lately. My entire support system stayed in North Carolina. The thought and reality of it almost wrecked me last week. Yesterday was a pretty difficult day as well, although I prayed a little, went for a walk and listened to Zig Ziglar. I was supposed to be pumped and over the top but I wasn’t. I proceeded to the Toddler Story Time at the public library when I saw a missed called from a friend from NC. She prayed with and for me and it changed my whole being. Story time was fantastic – that also helped my day. I saw my mentor had left me a message on FB so I called her and I was further encouraged. She said, Cintia, you are a good friend and you will find good friends. She also reminded me of Proverbs 18:24 (a man that hath friends must shew himself friendly), which gave me hope. The week I got here I saw a friend I had not seen in 10 years and I recently talked to my BFF from Middle School. Both are in Brazil but both remind me that I am a good friend. The isolation we often suffer erase some of the goodness that’s in us. I think God has ways to show us we are better than we give ourselves credit. I am going to dare to say that now that I am going through this experience I know exactly what newcomers feel and what they need. I have a new level of compassion for them. I am also a firm believer that friendships can’t be forced. I believe (just like my friend prayed for me yesterday) that I will find likeminded friends. If I keep showing myself friendly, the friends will come. Instead of entertaining the bad feelings that come with isolation, I keep thinking about what do I want to give in a friendship. I often think about what I want from a friend but yesterday I realized I am to invest in my friends, I am to give and make a difference in their lives.
If you are feeling isolated for some reason today, please know that I totally understand. Let’s try to focus showing ourselves friendly and also being wide-open to the amazing friends we’ll meet soon or later.
* Originally Posted at Mom Perspective, the blog where I talk Motherhood exclusively.

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